Selamat Hari Jadi Sayang..... You have been my greatest mistake.....

Salam,

1. First time aku tengok kau, dem babe, aku mati2 ingatkan kau org Kelantan. Kau rupa sebijik cam awek Kelate, geng ngan awek2 Kelate, orang panggil kau pon "Mek" dan kau pon cakap Kelate taim tuh. Tipah tertipu. Tidakah kau tahu, awek2 Kelate ni adalah kryptonite bagi aku? What a great mistake I made.

Ore Paser Mah ko nie?

2. Kawan2 aku semua cakap, jaga2 ngan kau, kau merbahaya. Playgirl. Sebab ramai sangat Datuk2, Datuk Seri dan Tan Sri yang dok tekel kau sampai sorang pon tak tau sapa dan berapa banyak balak kau ada. Aku percaya cakap mereka. So stigma itu lekat di kepala aku. What a great mistake I made.

glamer abes!

3. Ketika di KK, sewaktu aku dok tekan ayat maut kat sorang awek Kelate yg comel lote tinggi lampai, kau datang nyebok kacau daun. Do you know how long have I like that girl? Do you know how hard have I tried just to be in that moment with that girl? I loved that girl. I want to marry that girl. I thought that girl could be the girl of my life. I hate you that day. What a great mistake I made.

4. I can sense that maybe you like me from that day. Tapi aku rasa semua awek minat kat aku kot taim tuh! So fikiran waras ku berkata, aku mungkin perasan je nih. Kau tak minat kat aku kot. Saje flirt2 je. Ignore her. What a great mistake I made.

5. Then our path crossed several times after that. But then taim tu ada beberapa kawan aku dah booking kau. Aku chill je. Diaorang nak, silakanlah. Aku siap tolong bagi nasihat lagi. Aku open line utk diorg. Tapi lagi banyak chan aku bagi kat diorg, lagi banyak chan dapat kat aku. Aku cuba tolak kau jauh2. Aku ingatkan aku boleh tolak fate. What a great mistake I made.

6. Remember that bus trip from Penang to Perlis? Kau nak balik rumah. Aku dan 2 org kawan aku nak pegi Langkawi. Kita beli tiket skali. So now, sapa nak dok sebelah kau? I don't give a shit. Aku pegi isap rokok as korang board. Biar korang decide. Skali bila aku naik, aikk. .dua2 budak laki tu kecut last minute. Aku yg terpaksa dok sebelah kau. What a great mistake I made.

7. Suddenly I realized, because I have been avoiding you, we have never had a decent conversation for more than 2 minutes. 2 hours later as the bus rolled into Kangar Bus Station, you had bowled me over. I am yours. What a great mistake I made.

8. It took several months after that for both of us to say it to each other, but by then we were here down-under but 2500km apart. Neither of us had much belief in a long-distance relationship. We both saw, one by one, our friend's long-distance relationship crumbled until we are the only one that remain intact. But it had made me re-evaluate our situation. I started to have doubt. What a great mistake I made.

9. This was the time before there is internet in every house. Before mobile phone. Call 2 minggu sekali sahaja from land-line, for 1 hour, because it was costly. The cost, the distance, the time apart, and mostly the amount of trust you put on each other, melemahkan aku! Demit! This is stupid. All this pain and investment, for uncertain eventuality. I am a logic-minded person. This relationship was just illogical. Perempuan ni mana2 boleh cari. What a great mistake I made.

10. After one year, I decided to end this. I will dump you. I made a perfect "dumping" plan. I planned it to the minutes. Both of us were back in Malaysia for end of the year holidays. I asked you to meet me in front of USM Penang library, at 10 am. Perfect location because its public. I was thinking, you won't cry if I dump you in public. You know, women using tears as their weapons and stuff kan. At 1010 am, I will say goodbye to you and as an excuse, I will say that I have an appointment to see my little brother at KOMTAR. I already called my little brother who studied in MRSM Kulim to meet me at KOMTAR at 11am.

11. Aku pakai se-selekeh yg possible. Ngan baju GunsNRoses "Use Your Illusion 2" kaler biru, jeans koyak, rambut serabai panjang sampai dada dan mulut bau rokok chain smoking. Mesti kau bersyukur aku nak dump kau. But, what a great mistake I made.

12. Tepat 10 am aku nampak kelibat sorang awek berjalan ke arah aku dari hujung library. It has been a year, aku dah tak cham engkau. Tapi bila kau senyum je kat aku dari jauh itu, tiga langkah yg kau ambil selepas itu, adalh seolah-olah 3 jam. Segala2nya in slow motion. Dem beb! Kau pakai baju kurung! Mana aci! Tidakah kau tahu, baju kurung itu juga merupakan kryptonite bagi aku? Mana pegi baby fat kat pipi tembam kau?

Pehhh...err...mantap.

13. Hati aku ketika itu jatuh tergolek2 kat lantai depan library itu. Jatuh untukmu. Akal lojik aku trus terfikir di kala itu. "Dude! Kau giler nak dump awek cun ginih? Kau ingat kau boleh cari lagi awek cun gini yang nak kat kau dalam hidup kau pas ni?". (Skang ni?...err...Yes. Takdehal) So, there and then, I made my mind. This is it. She's the one. I will make it work no matter what.

14. So, dalam masa 3 langkah itu, my "perfect" plan hancuzz! Dalam masa 3 langkah itu , I am yours, again. Siol. Ni mesti pakai bomo siam ni! Tetiba aku concious akan keselekehan aku. What if tetiba dia dah tak minat kat aku sebab aku dah serabai macam mat ganja? What a great mistake I made.

15. Well, pada 1010am, detik yg sepatutnya aku dump kau, aku terpaksa ajak kau pergi KOMTAR sekali sebab nak kene jumpa adik aku. Sampai je di KOMTAR, instead of layan adik aku, aku sebok ngan kau sampai biarkan adik aku. Takpe. He eventually will understand!

16. Well. That was in 95. Kita baru 21. Those mistakes were just the beginning. How foolish we were. Biarkan ia berada di dalam lipatan memori kita berdua sahaja.

17. Now fifteen years later, aku bajet kau by this time akan jadi gemuk, pendek, rupa makcik2 dah dan kalau aku nak beromen, kene tutup lampu sebab sakit mata! Kukuhlah sikit alasan aku untuk kawin empat, tiga ataupun dua. Tapi damned beb! Musnah impian nafsu serakah aku! Kau cengitu je! Menten! What a great mistake I made.

Dua bini cun is ALWAYS better than one bini cun.

18. Bila aku cakap kepada kau tentang keinginan aku untuk kawin lain pon, sungguh tak kusangka, dari bibir2mu terlontar kata2, "Kau nak kawin lain boleh ................". Terima kasih sayang, atas keizinan mu itu. Sungguh ku terharu. Sumpah, aku sangkakan engkau akan emo tadi. What a great mistake I made.

19. Walaupun engkau meletakan syarat, ".........tapi, kene langkah mayat aku dulu!", akan tetapi syarat itu tidaklah terlalu berat. Ajal dan maut itu di tangan Allah. Hari2 ramai org mati eksiden, heart attack, mati beranak, kanser, kene tikam etc. Time kau pon pastikan tiba.

20. Itulah sebabnya, di setiap harijadimu, aku akan riang gembira menyambutnya. Kerana setiap detik yang berlalu, semakin dekat engkau pada ajal mu dan semakin hampir aku kpd impianku untuk kawin lain!

Selamat Hari Jadi Sayang!
Although I have made a lot of mistakes, but you have been great.
You are, my greatest mistake.

Sekian, mekasey, wassalam.